So tired

So tired of waiting to bring them home. Tired of giving meaningless, non-updates to people, tired of worrying about them, tired of waiting, waiting, waiting. Tired of life moving on and tired of change. So much change, all while we've waited. Tired of crying and raging and guessing what month it will be. Tired of stalking people via Facebook who have gone to their orphanage for just a glimpse of them in pictures. You know what I've learned from those pictures? That the same kids are always in them and it's rarely mine.

What must the boys think? Will we ever come for them? Surely by now it is just like a far off dream to them. This is the longest I have ever gone without seeing them. It's been since April 2013 and it is much, much too long.

We need to catch a break this week. Our spirits are tired and our hearts are heavy. We have had some hard blows in our lives recently and have been leaning heavily on God. But Lord, we really need hope this week. We need to get this fingerprint appointment scheduled (seriously U.S. govt--9 days after receiving the money order you still haven't cashed it or scheduled the appointment?), successfully complete it and get our I600 approval quickly after. We need to get a VISA appointment and be able to book our tickets to bring them home. We need Your Grace and Mercy to finish this.

Please bring them home soon.